^The first time he yelled at me...it really hurt me, after awhile I've built a wall around myself to any voice above the level of my own (And Ive purposely forgotten how to yell).

I just hope he'll change, he keeps saying hes going to do all this great stuff, but then he never does anything about it. He cant hold a job even for more then a month (if even that). And he says my success at my job is only because I am a girl. And I told him how I want to get my doctors degree in paleantology (Which would take 8 yrs, mind you) and he always is like "Great, now youre going to meet some other guy and fall in love with him" or hes like "Maybe we should just break up now" or tells me that when he gets into the army he'll go active so he'll only be around a month out of each year. And I wish he'd support me, because I have the GPA to get into that University and others...

He is really sweet though...I love how hes adventurous...like when we go fourwheeling and dirt biking...and he sk8 boards with me...I dunno...I love him, I put some much into the relationship I dont want to let everything go for nothing...

Im the only one in the relationship with a job (I give him money usually), Im the only one with a car (I always go to see him whereever he is, he never comes to me -- which does get on my nerves and hurts to a degree). He never calls me, because he doesnt have a house...he just bumps around from people to people...so its not like I can call him...but, he makes absolutely no effort to call me.

However, he is faithful to me...I do know that...and I do love him...and Ive given him so much...and taken so much out of me, I dont want to know that Ive done all of that...for nothing...

Thanks for the poem MJM...Im going to read it in 2.2