I quit for less...

You are your only pilot and you chose weed??? you need to be be alone for a while to understand a soul mate is worth more than weed...
the first rule in any lasting relationship it trust,,,you broke it,,, you would of been a whole lot better off if you laid it on the line... She may of left you but you could of realized in time she was worth more than weed and you would be standing on better ground right now...

get off your ass and make a decision...