if you lived in my town you'd understand why it's so hard to make friends, i don't want to say cuz it's going to come off as racist, so i'll just leave it at that...

maybe some of you dont' care about having family or not, but i do... it drives me insane every single day i wake up, knowing i'm the black sheep in the family and no more than 6-7 people would show up to my funeral.... i've always been the black sheep, of school, of family, of everything... and it drives me crazy...

i think i'm doing a pretty good job of not losing it, i mean i've been known to fly off the handle for lesser events... but i felt a need to post it here so i did... i'm not going sucidal, i'm not thinking stupid...