Quote Originally Posted by higher4hockey
tallulah......if you were going to break up with him and he put a ring on your finger.......why did that stop you??

I am a crazy girlfriend who tends to think that after a bad night that we should break up.


....I don't know...


Sometimes I still think I should breakup with him....than others times I can't imagine it.

I want to feel the feeling of freeeeenessss while still having someone to come home to..

I can't seem to have the best of both worlds and I feel I really need it. Boyfriends are hard, relationships are hard..especially being so young....and a diamond ring is a lot of pressure..I don't know what the hell I am doing. I still am trying to figure out how to be who I am, and it is so hard to do that with someone else trying to do the same thing for themselves...
...still trying to figure out, in fact just learning...HOW to live life..how to be responsible...how to not care....how to stay happy.

We have our problems...and the number one problem that makes PROBLEMS in our relationship is ALCOHOL. It is something I had dealt with my whole life and same goes for him and it is a horrible battle and I sometimes feel hopeless like I can't win...but I fear that no matter who I am with will be an alcoholic for fear of my own habits.

I am so very confused about my life at this point in time....really..good luck getting an answer out of me that makes any sense at all.