orange, you're a good man.

I feel your pain and I understand your frustration. Just out of curiosity, have you ever read the book Reefer Madness by Eric Schlosser? If not, I highly recommend you look into it. It takes a journalistic approach focusing almost entirely on the black market. It's broken up into three parts; Marijuana, Pornography, and Immigration. All looked from an American standpoint. Nothing but the facts. You will be blown away by how unbelievably irrational our American Government is and was. (As if you didn't already know, heh) Man, I wish I had the book right now so I could post a bunch of facts and whatnot.

You are who you are. If cannabis is a significant part of your life, then so be it. Now, like others have already mentioned, don't let this plant control you. It is beautiful, all-knowing, kind, insightful, fun, interesting, pleasant, and more. It is not controlling, and in no way should be. Too many people allow their minds to be tricked by MJ and are sent spiraling into a shitty life. I've seen it happen; many times. Who's fault is that? The user.

I know you're not stupid orangeman, so this shouldn't be a problem. Keep being yourself and don't let any one or anything change who you are. Especially not one of the most corrupt Governments on the planet. Judging by your post it seems you may be experiencing mild withdrawal symptoms which happen to the best of us. For me, these little problems tend to tide over in a week or so, but I'm sure it's different for everyone. Try to wait it out and be strong. Oh, and don't stop toking. When you fall off the horse, you jump right back on....or something like that heh. :baggy: