I have PCOS! I'm so glad to find other....'self medicators' haha.

I don't get my period unless I'm on the pill. I don't want to be off of it because now that I know all of my hormones are fucked up I don't want to risk throwing them off. I was prescribed YAZ in college and it really fucked me up and made me have panic attacks and scared the shit out of me. I thought I was going crazy. (I WAS going crazy!) So I'll keep to that schedule until I start thinking about having kids....I'm not exactly worried about getting accidentally pregnant since I am on the pill and have pcos, so am unlikely to get pregnant anyway.

Unfortunately, due to my dick of a soon to be ex husband and other stressors I got off track with my pills and getting my body back on schedule is hell. I'm having my third period in the space of 5 weeks. (taking lots of iron to make up for it...thank goodness I'm used to this shit by now...and that my body can only build up so much lining at once).

Marijuana is the only thing that really helps with any of my symptoms. I seem to be immune to most other pain medications (I took an oxycodone from when I had surgery the other day because I was hurting so bad and didn't have anything else...y'know what it did? Nothing. Nothing at all. I didn't get high, I didn't feel any reduction in pain. I didn't even get tired. I might has well have not taken it. So weed is the only thing that really can get rid of my pain when I feel like my cysts are about to burst (my cysts are not small either, I've seen how big they tend to get on an ultrasound. My ovaries look like chocolate chip cookies....which reeses cups on them.

I definitely need to consider freezing some of my eggs. I would be devastated if I never got to have children because of this shit. I don't think people understand how much it affects a woman to not be able to physically conceive a child. It never occurs to them to think about it.