so I am also a christ follower. I have had the same issue. But to be honest with you , I feel convicted that I AM DOING THE RIGHT THING! Smoking weed as long as it doesn't become a addiction were you are smoking all the time( i.e: every 5 min) is ok. God gave us cannabis, and he also said that all things from him are good. Now, if you are using it for selfish reasons(addiction) thats wrong. I get up in the morning and I like to sit outside and smoke a joint and pray to him....and his spirit talks to me...it's the only time I can really here him....I feel him...I focus on him...nothing but him. He gives me my ideas. I have prayed to God that if I am making the wrong decision to give me understanding of that, and it hasn't happened yet....the hardest thing to get over is the other church members not smoking pot. You want to get close to them but obviously they are against it. But we are not of worldy beliefs remember we are of God. Read your Bible and ask God to show you...and he will.