oh yeah, blue.... i was banned in your time of need =/ sorry i wasn't there to help you...

how's things going anyways? i hope you haven't done something (excuse the term) stupid like i was planning, or your friend did... i haven't really seen you posting... i knew there was something else i was forgetting to bring up when my ban was over... now i finally remember, and now that i do... it kinda worries me i haven't seen much of you since 'the incident'... atleast respond to this post so i and others know you're well....

hope things get easier for you... i'd love to tell you things get easier with time, but it's been years since my brother's murder, and still nothing seems easier... maybe it takes many many years... i dunno... just gotta stay strong.. cuz what else can you do (beside the unthinkable)

there are obviously people here who worry about you... so we're with you, atleast in heart and spirit.