i don't know you, but i definatly feel for you man.

a few years ago my sister died(at 5 yrs old) of a heart failure, it almost pushed me over the edge. im 18 now so i was there to help change her diapers...

but things get better, just don't forget your buddy and he will live on with you as long as the memories remain. it's hard now i know, it must be.

once again i am deeply sorry for the loss

PEACE