I know that there is nothing that I can say to make your loss easier to bear, but would offer that sometimes things happen that defy logic and reason - we are, unfortunatley, left behind to deal with the aftermath of such events.
My philosophy on such things, is that they DO happen for a reason - even though we may never know what that reason is. And that, from every bad thing that happens, something good will eventually come from it.

Your friend's spirit will live on within your heart and soul, and everytime you remember him. Although this great tradegy has brought you much grief and guilt, you must accept that no matter how much you would wish it otherwise, there was nothing that you could have done to change it.
That you spent time being with him, and talking to him, shows how much you cared and loved him - and I am certain, beyond any doubt, that your being there helped his spirit to find peace.

The ones we love, never die,
It's just the vessel that has gone,
For in the hearts of those who care,
Their spirit lingers ever on.

Peace to you, Koshea

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