they wont let me go see him....god...i just hope he could here me when he was in his coma.....

o god...i cant stop thinking about all of it...id known him my whole life...we went on vacations togeather...we had so much and now hes dead and we are both cold...i just want to scream and go insane and inside i KNOW its my fault he died...i should ahve been there to watch out for him...i always have been before...but this once....i slipped up....