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[koshea]

over compultian and teenage ignorance lead to this...why the fuck did it ever have to happen...a 16 year old...now on his likley death bed in a alcahol induced coma....completley helpless...laying there...the kid i uesd to run around and play with...a damn drinking binge set this up...i should have been there to help him when it happend...i knew he had a problem with limits...ive known it since we were 3 and he keped eating candy even after he threw up..its my fucking fault that he is in this state of being. but then i suppose him being in the state he is in is my punnishment as well...

god...he is too young to die...his life cant end before it even begins...


the doctors say chances of survival are low....and chances of death within 24 hours are probable because his alcahol level was around 2.5-2.7...a day later they havent gone down much...still over lethal limit....






i just want to tear a hole in the side of reality and hide in there forever...

koshea Reviewed by koshea on 11-30-2004. . over compultian and teenage ignorance lead to this...why the fuck did it ever have to happen...a 16 year old...now on his likley death bed in a alcahol induced coma....completley helpless...laying there...the kid i uesd to run around and play with...a damn drinking binge set this up...i should have been there to help him when it happend...i knew he had a problem with limits...ive known it since we were 3 and he keped eating candy even after he threw up..its my fucking fault that he is in this Rating: 5

[GHoSToKeR]

sorry koshea.. good luck to you, him and his family

[GooseBear]

my thoughts are with you

[Ammie]

You cant blaim urself for the actions of ur friends, Although It is very hard not to. The only thing u can do right now is be there. Stop thinkin about the worst that can happen and start thinkin the best. Sometimes the encouragement of another can help bring someone back from the brink of death. So stay with him, keep talkin to him, and remind him of how things were when u were young. Keep everything hopeful when u talk to him even if he is unconcious. Good Luck sweety and my thoughts are with u.

[koshea]

this is so fucked up..it isnt suppost to happen like this....i dont like being in the ICU with my best friend in a coma infront of me...i hope he can hear me because ive been talking to him when i was there....i got home at about 4:30 this morning from the hospital becuase his parents were nice enough to say im family...

THINGS ARENT SUPPOST TO BE THIS WAY

[koshea]

his mom just called...my best friend... died... at 6:17 PM today
im so numb i dont even know what life is anymore...i have to go see his body


bye

[GHoSToKeR]

his mom just called...my best friend... died... at 6:17 PM today
im so numb i dont even know what life is anymore...i have to go see his body


bye

oh man, im so sorry..

[Day Dreamin Faze]

Reading this put's chills threw my body.Everyone has had there share of loss's its life noone can change it, everyone moves on to better days its just the way it is. My thoughts are with you and your freinds family. God Bless.

R.I.P Megan Clark. (freind that died in a car accident this past summer)

[koshea]

they wont let me go see him....god...i just hope he could here me when he was in his coma.....

o god...i cant stop thinking about all of it...id known him my whole life...we went on vacations togeather...we had so much and now hes dead and we are both cold...i just want to scream and go insane and inside i KNOW its my fault he died...i should ahve been there to watch out for him...i always have been before...but this once....i slipped up....

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

wow im really sry, lucky for me i really havent had to experience any close deaths other than my grandpa but that happened when i was 9 so i didnt really understand i have no idea what i would do if someone close to me died right now but man its not ur fault you dont need to take the blame just cuz something happened IT WASNT UR FAULT from your posts you seem cool so, dont think it was ur fault