I went through something like that too Lip.
It really hurt like nothing I've felt before, life just seemed useless after that.
Years after I still have dreams about it and though I hardly think about it during the days.
Give it some time, I know it seems unbearable right now. I know you've probably heard this before but time heals all...
I hope you feelbetter soon, love hurts, you're not alone.
*hug*