Most, if not all of us, have gone through something similar. Your girl always seems like THE one and like there is no other better. But after you get your next girl you'll see that SHE seems like THE one too. That's how it works. Pick yourself up and go meet someone else.

FYI I've been through that before AND worse. The girl of MY dreams died of cancer in 2005. I felt like ending my own life but I pushed on through it. I'm still here. Not as happy but still here and hoping to someday find someone even half as good as her...