I have no one to talk to right now, and i feel so bad, it's like everything i've got means nothing, whats the point?

I split up with my long term girlfriend in 2005. It was hard but i pulled myself through it. Then we got talking again last year, and it opened up all the old wounds. I went of the rails, and even though i dont want to admit it i got depresed. I love this woman, more than anything in my life. I'd give up weed for her, i'd die for her.

She felt the same about me, untill it went pear shaped.

And then tonight, i tried to talk to her, just to see if she was alrgiht, how life was treating her, and she just said she couldnt talk and she'd talk to me later.

We've always been civil, we always sent texts to each other for our birthdays and christmas, and this year, i sent her one, and she didnt bother replying..

I dont know what i feel, i just feel lost. I feel like im broken.

Nothing means anything anymore because all i want is her. I'f give everything up for her.

out of the handful of gals i've been with she was the one i wanted.

We pictured us getting married, kids. the lot.

We had it all planned out. My life was going to be perfect.

Im just rambling, im sorry, i just needed to say all this stuff to someone, i just miss her so much. And i know shes not comming back.

I supose im feeling all the depression i had before, x10.

She was the only one for me, im never going to find someone as smart, funny and beautiful as her. She was perfect, in every way. It was like i'd written down what i wanted in a woman and she was it.

I've lost the best thing i've ever had in my life.
LIP Reviewed by LIP on . Feeling like shit, need to talk to someone. I have no one to talk to right now, and i feel so bad, it's like everything i've got means nothing, whats the point? I split up with my long term girlfriend in 2005. It was hard but i pulled myself through it. Then we got talking again last year, and it opened up all the old wounds. I went of the rails, and even though i dont want to admit it i got depresed. I love this woman, more than anything in my life. I'd give up weed for her, i'd die for her. She felt the same about me, untill it Rating: 5