i know this may not help you... but last night i came up with the best reason for life i myself or anyone else could ever think of... the only thing you do in life is eat, sleep, fuck, drink and drugs... eat sleep fuck, drugs and alcohal... and we repeat this almost everyday of out lifes... from the time we are over the age of 13... many will repeat this well into our 80's and 90's...

i know how it feals to loose some one that close to you... and i dont know what i would do if i lost my "brother"(hes like what your friend was to you... we grew up together)came close to loosing him over the summer... and i was in tears until his mom called me at 3 in the morning about 2 days latter...