My son is finally home and we are going to watch donnie darko again to veg out and try not to think...I have been crying for hours my head hurts...

Her mom commited suicide at the same age 44 so I really don't understand why she would do this. She said she would never do this to her love ones. She wrote me a letter telling me she loves me on myspace but there was no hint of a problem.

I guess maybe it was genetic I don't know. I am going to be with her husband and kids as soon as I know the funeral date and can get a plane to the east coast...

I always thought weed was a cure all I was wrong it can't begin to take the edge off sorrow...

In the end it is your friends that matter.

Being alone is a terrible thing when you get bad news...thanks for being there when I needed you,Junkyard, Oni, Josh, benagain, Skink and Eric..I am sure you are all blessed with good Karma

You guys are truly wonderful.
I love you

Cat