Hi Pipe Dreams- If I knew a bit more about your circumstances, your age and things you've been through, it would be easier to discuss possible solutions, but all the suggestions about diet and exercise really work, they reduce stress no matter what, and that is something you can control, so start with one diet change like cutting out sugar and then add a walk several times per week (don't walk near traffic lol). These small things don't seem like they could make a big difference, but in time they do.

I had serious anger issues for many years myself; when I got sober over 20 years ago it all came bubbling up like lava, so I totally relate to that feeling of wanting to rip apart someone's head like a head of lettuce (and if you do rip apart a head of lettuce, it's pretty funny).

The good news is that there are behavioral adjustments you can make through consciously releasing anger. I learned that first you have to believe that you can release anger as easily as you can drop a pencil from your hand. Once you know that you can do something, you are able to do it- kind of makes sense, doesn't it? I used the Sedona Method, but many people use other techniques to the same end. Just remember -you do not have to be a prisoner to your emotions. Do some research on the internet about anger management, and you should find some resources that would help. You just have to do the footwork and make a commitment to change, and it will work, it will get better, I promise.

I commute two hours per day, and it could make me furious if I let it, but I don't want to be furious. It's too exhausting. I have a hit, listen to music, and relax. Those are my two hours, I am not willing to give them up to every wacko driver in Massachusetts

Anger, no matter how "justified" is so toxic, and it's actually wonderful that you have reached this point, the turning point. It sounds like you have hit bottom. Now you can work on letting it go. I wish you the best- stay in touch! :lovestruck: