I was on paxil for a while,and smoke everyday. I felt much much different when I smoked on them. Something about the fact anti-depressants are MAOI inhibitors. The receptors in your mind are inhibited by the anti-depressants,I always used to think the cannabanoids and THC combined with the anti-ds had a negative impact on the depression symptoms. It's all chemicals in your brain out of whack is all bro, you'll get through it; and as the mrs. and birdgirl said ,you should see your doctor about this, if you're parents can't know about you smoking ,and you can't tell him you're gonna have to get through this the hard way. Keep us updated, we're all here for you