usually stuff like this doesn't happen... i don't believe in god, i believe in some higher power, i usually just call it karma tho... anyways whatever 'it' is must've known i was really really really down, and getting close to the edge? i dunno lol i try to lead the good life, but it seems i get shit on around every corner... usually.... i just feel kinda bad i'm profiting from my wife's pain... even tho it's not like i intended for it to happen... and if i coulda stopped it, or even took the car myself i would have in a heart beat.. for weeks afterwards i kept seeing the accident over and over again.... deep down i knew that car was going to end up doing something 'bad' but i didn't listen to my instincts (as usual) and my wife got hurt because of it.... so that's why i blame myself for it...