Quote Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho
well, after a nice long chat with my wife (which never happens) and 3 of the anti-depressants i'm feeling alot more collected and stable.... i know i have two good reasons, which is why i dropped the razor after only two slices on my uppper fore-arm, and told my wife to take it before i do something stupid and leave my son without a father...

i'm also guessing alot of you don't understand depression...

here you go: a poem i wrote awhile ago..

Suffering and somthering in this cloud
It's depression in the form of a shroud
It covers me up and I just can't take it
Not another trip I just won't be able to make it
I'll never survive another one of these
I don't care what everyone else sees
It's not so easy to just be free
And I'm not just make a scene
Theres nothing to be done to intervene
I don't intend to set of this chain of events
But to you none of this makes any sense
Because youve never experienced any of this
It's all fake is what you constantly insist
Try for once living my life as I do
Then you'll see why I am am dreaming,
Dreaming of the knife instead of you
Slashing my wirsts and never being missed

depression consumes you, it fucks with your thought process and you are unable to think logically... atleast for the most part... i don't want this, but i'm stuck with it i guess.. i try to make the best of my life and do what's right.. but you know, somtimes it becomes too much to handle... which leads to shit like 'tonight' i know lately i'm probably seeming like an attention seeking emo... but i'm honestly not trying to be, i consider you guys friends, and when i get 'down' i come here to get help/confidence/and logic. so i'm not seeking attention, i'm seeking people's help/guidance i'd consider friends...
Your absolutely right depression does consume and over powers you! I've dealt throughout my life an on going battle with depression, I'm finally at a point where it only takes control at the odd time, but when it does i feel like I loose a bit of myself everytime.

Your poem is very powerful, and insightful! Keep writing your thoughts, Writting poems is the only thing at times that kept my sanity in place when i was younger. I can be utterly and completly honest when I write my poetry howvere dark and depressing some of my poems may be, but they are outlets of my pain, and suffering.

I tried to find a poem I wrote on depression, but all I could find is this poem:

I hear his Footsteps as he apraches from behind
Whispering painful memories upon my Backside
I Shiver and tremble for I fear and know him well
All too well in the years past
At times he was my Only companion and a dreadful one at that
His Cold hand grabs my shoulder and turns me about
He looks at me with those dark cold eyes
The cold malice of his essence sinks deep into my heart
He Takes control of my Mind and body again
I wish to escape his precence to escape his grasp
His grip is strong but I am stronger
Depression will not allways take Control
One day I will be free from his hold on me
Until that day I shall suffer

The other poem I wrote was a bit better, but I can't find it oddly enough, and sad too cause it was my favorite poem

But I guess what i'm tryin to say Slip, is in this world there are many people who suffer from depression too. I trully hope one day you will be able to take hold of your depression, and be released from its dreadful grip! Until then hanging in there!