well, after a nice long chat with my wife (which never happens) and 3 of the anti-depressants i'm feeling alot more collected and stable.... i know i have two good reasons, which is why i dropped the razor after only two slices on my uppper fore-arm, and told my wife to take it before i do something stupid and leave my son without a father...

i'm also guessing alot of you don't understand depression...

here you go: a poem i wrote awhile ago..

Suffering and somthering in this cloud
It's depression in the form of a shroud
It covers me up and I just can't take it
Not another trip I just won't be able to make it
I'll never survive another one of these
I don't care what everyone else sees
It's not so easy to just be free
And I'm not just make a scene
Theres nothing to be done to intervene
I don't intend to set of this chain of events
But to you none of this makes any sense
Because youve never experienced any of this
It's all fake is what you constantly insist
Try for once living my life as I do
Then you'll see why I am am dreaming,
Dreaming of the knife instead of you
Slashing my wirsts and never being missed

depression consumes you, it fucks with your thought process and you are unable to think logically... atleast for the most part... i don't want this, but i'm stuck with it i guess.. i try to make the best of my life and do what's right.. but you know, somtimes it becomes too much to handle... which leads to shit like 'tonight' i know lately i'm probably seeming like an attention seeking emo... but i'm honestly not trying to be, i consider you guys friends, and when i get 'down' i come here to get help/confidence/and logic. so i'm not seeking attention, i'm seeking people's help/guidance i'd consider friends...
slipknotpsycho Reviewed by slipknotpsycho on . for anyone following my threads tonight i'm in a really unstable mood right now, i don't wanna go off on any of you, so i'm done for the night, i'm gonna go for the night, so you can stop checking my posts (or any post that you're expecting an answer from me for) just dont' want anyone to think i went and od'd or soemthing..... Rating: 5