I was dianosed as depressed, and it probalby feels like your life cant get any lower or worse, it just seems impossible to do anything or want to do anything because you feel trapped. Just trapped unable to do anything or want to do anything, except want to take your own life.
Id admit I tried to take my life several times but the tears in my moms eyes, I couldnt forget. Till this day, everytime I even think of wanting to kill myself, I think of my moms tears, it stops me.
You have a wife and a child, dont kill yourself, at least try for them, they are worth the effort arent they?