sorry to hear that mastachronic... i sincerely hope you find some things in life (spouse, kids, friends, family, helping orphans, painting, smoking weed, whatever) that give you reason to get up in the morning.

hell, that is why some people (not saying it is good or bad) follow god, because it gives them purpose, and something bigger than themselves to live for... a greater cause... fighting to save unborn babies or for the right to choose abortion... whatever side of the track, most people are looking for something bigger than themselves to contribute to... i hope you find something... for your sake... good luck man