Quote Originally Posted by kiwi
OK i was raised by just a mother because my father was mentally too young to be a good father, and there was my older sister as well in all this. My mum was a solo mum with 2 lil girls and a divorce to deal with at the age of 19. Yes life was hard and even threw out the years my father lived the good life while my mum struggled to bring us girls up. My mum never went on any government support, she worked hard and made sure us girls had the best life she could. My father remarried a lady with two daughters of her own and it was only then my father wanted his own two girls in his life. To cut a long story short I am now 35 and I owe my success to my mother and I have told my father this to his face. I got married in 2001 and my father took it for granted that he was walking me down the aisle, but to his shock I told him that it was a right he did not have and it was my mum that had been there for me for all those years.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I have a good life and I don't need to have my father around to make my feel like a success. I have a wonderful son, a loving husband and a good life.... BTW my mum is now a self-made millionaire and I have been lucky enough to learn my life skills from her that has meant my hubby and I now live a very comfortable life.
but see, you can obviously let go.. i can't... it's not a i won't matter, i've tried so hard... but i failed.. and believe it or not, i'm a failure at life.. probably the only reason i'm so determined to be a real father for my son, is what i experienced as a child... i have some real problems... and i dont' know how to express them, much less know who to go to..i know i can go to my wife... but any time i do talk to her, it just doesn't make it 'go away' so to speak... i still feel the exact same before and after talking...

saliva - always (doesn't exactly fit but helps me somehow)

I hear, a voice say "Don't be so blind"
It's telling me all these things
That you would probably hide
Am I, your one and only desire
Am I the reason you breathe
Or am I the reason you cry?

Always, always, always, always, always, always,
I just can't live without you...

I love you
I hate you
I can't get around you.
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you.
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you.

(Done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you)

I feel, like you don't want me around
I guess I'll pack all my things
I guess I'll see you around
It's all, been bottled up until now
As I walk out your door
All I can hear is the sound

Always, always, always, always, always, always,
I just can't live without you...

I love you
I hate you
I can't get around you.
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you.
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you.

I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you.

I left my head around your heart,
Why would you tear my world apart?

Always, always, always, always.

I see, the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel, more like a man
Was it all, just a part of your plan
The pistol's shakin' in my hands
And all I hear is the sound.

I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you.
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you.
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that i'm out the door
And now i'm done with you.

I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you.
I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you.
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I pick myself off the floor,
And now i'm done with you.

Always
Always
Always.