Your first thought is probably "why didn't he post this in the medical forum?". Well, because I'm not looking for solutions, support, or even a discussion over the condition. I just wanted to ask those who like myself, live in chronic pain, are your friends total assholes too?

Maybe that's a bit harsh, I mean they're still my friends and probably always will be, but I feel like calling them assholes. More and more I can just tell, they're getting sick of me and my pain issues. I can constantly feel this tension in the air, this "oh, there goes mike again with his whining, acting like it's 10 times worse than it really is."
I RARELY actually complain about it, and every time I'm over at their place I'm putting a 110% effort the whole time to contain any reactions and pretend I'm doing just fine, like smiling and laughing and all that while TRYING (damn hard) to ignore the massive pain going through all my muscles and bones.
But sometimes, like last night, it just gets to be way too much and I can't deal with it. Yesterday when I was over there I was sitting with the guys, chatting and all that, and the pain got excrutiating (regardless of being pumped full of enough painkillers to kill Robert Downy Jr., which barely do anything anyways). So I quietly went upstairs, without a word, and curled up on the couch barely holding myself together. Then 5 minutes later they started moving out all the furniture, which we planned to do earlier. So they carry these big heavy couches upstairs and see me lying there on the couch, not offering to help, and one says in a pissy tone "gee, thanks for helping Mike", and I heard my other friend say "ah that's just Mike being useless with his back again, always whining about it" (trying to say it quietly, but I heard).

It pisses me off enough that because 5 years ago it started with a back and neck injury, they think that's all it is, a bad back and a stiff neck. It's gone WAY beyond that and even my doctors are baffled as to why i'm only getting worse instead of better. I have constant pain in every muscle in my body, sciatica burning in both legs (that seems to now go to the front for some reason), and needles going down arms... not to mention the constant throbbing pain through my whole body. But do these assholes care? No, they just get sick of my supposed whining and keep giving me this bullshit of "quit killing your liver, you don't need painkillers, it's all in your head". Fucking hell I wish I could make them both feel like I do at my worst, then see what a mental tole it takes after several years. With all my experience I could probably take pain levels with a shrug that would make them cry like babies.

But yeah, in case anybody forgot through my long angry ranting, I'm just wondering if your friends (assuming your in pain too) are a bunch of idiot assholes too about it.
mrdevious Reviewed by mrdevious on . Anybody else here in chronic pain? Your first thought is probably "why didn't he post this in the medical forum?". Well, because I'm not looking for solutions, support, or even a discussion over the condition. I just wanted to ask those who like myself, live in chronic pain, are your friends total assholes too? Maybe that's a bit harsh, I mean they're still my friends and probably always will be, but I feel like calling them assholes. More and more I can just tell, they're getting sick of me and my pain issues. I can Rating: 5