Okay, this is my appology

[Wesley Pipes]

okay, i know that ppl on here dont really like me...and i know it doesnt really matter. but today, i realized that i pretty much dont have any friends at my school, and i am apparently annoying. i have no clue why and niether does anybody else...so..they say "ur annoying" and i ask why and they dont tell me why...im kind of thinking about killing myself, and im not saying this for attention, so please dont think i am. i really dont know wut to do. i really want friends, and i dont have many and i dont think ill get very many. so i wanna say im sorry for annoying anybody on these forums for talking about my mom too much or anything like that. i also realized that i will go nowhere in life because my grades are bad. i get d's and f's in highschool, and its my junior year. im 17 years old. i hate my life so much, and i know that i will nvr become wealthy or anything of that sort. i wont have a good job, a pretty wife (or any for that matter) and i wont have kids to continue my gene pool. so....im screwd for life and theres no sense in living any longer just to find out my predictions were true.

sorry again, bye

dude, to put it simply, life is hard, but u gotta atleast try...

friends come and go, but u will always stay true, u don't need to be wealthy, and a good job?? wtf is a good job anyway?? its called work for a reason... i dont have great qualifications either, but to me a job is a job, they come and go.... your only 17, how do u know you wont find a great girl that loves you?
stop looking for love and let it find you by itself,

nothing in life is a sure thing, make the best of what u got and MAKE yourself happy, others will notice this, and like it...

dont just live life... be alive with it

Peace and good will :jointsmile:

[tootsie roll]

So where the heck is the OP???!!!

And DAMMIT! Suicide IS selfish as selfish as it comes sometimes.
I am very familiar with suicide on a very personal level so I do what what I am talking about.

Suicide takes care of a short term problem. I am not talking about a terminally ill person comiting suicide. I'm talking about healthy young people who have momentairly lost hope. Death is forever and so are the after effects on the survivors. They end up in a living hell til the day they die.


Here is an old song



Through early morning fog I see

visions of the things to be

the pains that are withheld for me

I realize and I can see...

That.........

suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make

all our little joys relate

without that ever-present hate

but now I know that it's too late, and...



The game of life is hard to play

I'm gonna lose it anyway

The losing card I'll someday lay

so this is all I have to say....................


The only way to win is cheat

And lay it down before I'm beat

and to another give my seat

for that's the only painless feat..........



The sword of time will pierce our skins

It doesn't hurt when it begins

But as it works its way on in

The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...


A brave man once requested me

to answer questions that are key

is it to be or not to be

and I replied 'oh why ask me?'

'Cause suicide is painless

it brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

...and you can do the same thing if you please.



Wonderful song as far as I'm concerned!

[NextLineIsMine]

the common mistake of socially awkward kids to find a crew is that they often are exaggeratedly outgoing when they try to make friends. Take it easy, be the cool relaxed and unflustered guy you are within. Most of all find the kids you like not the ones you think everyone else likes.

[TokinAsianGuy]

What are some things you like to do that make you happy? i love movie marathons, they make me happy. it's the simple things.

You need to work on yourself before you work on friendships. cuz nobody wants to be friends with a suicidal guy, you know what i mean?

when people hang out with you, they want to hang out with the happy you, think about how you make people around you feel. are you draining their energy? are you overbearing or just too much maintenence?

i know these are alot of questions, but in order to improve your mental wellbeing you need to ask yourself these questions and more often then not, the answers are quite simple. no one here can solve your problems, but you know, even though theres flaming and light arguments, we're generally good and friendly people here.

my mind plays tircks on me all the time, jerking my emotions around and such. but then i realise i'm internalising all my thoughts when i should just get up and go... as in, stop thinking about how much your life sucks and just live life.

[LittLeWinG]

You need to harden the fuck up boy.

Life is hard. Deal with it.

I would be more nice, but im not in the mood.

[sgS2]

im sorry that ur life is that way,,
but in reality,
there are ppl far worse off than u...
thinkin of suicide over not having friends? r u kidding me?
yea its hard being the loner sometimes..but if a thing so little as this will have u contemplating on suicide...then u just arnt ready for the REAL world man...it gets a lot worse if things such as this bother u to this extent....wow..man...seek professional help...cuz yea...it seems u r very weak and have no will powrr...go find help NOW

[ValkyrieAg]

You need to harden the fuck up boy.

Life is hard. Deal with it.

I would be more nice, but im not in the mood.

I was starting to wonder if I was the only person on this damn board with a grip on reality and life. Everyone is always so understanding and forgiving and supportive. Some kids need a kick in the ass. I have never once in my life felt sorry for myself. For some, i can tell, thats Job 1.

In truth, I don't know if anyone had this explained to them. People die everyday. They get run over while on their motorcycles, they die from cancer, carnival accidents, old age....all sorts of shit. There are 6 billion people on this big ass earth. Noone cares more about yourself than you. Only you can help prevent forest fires and only you can get yourself out of the bottomless pit you are in. Everyone has had a time in their life where they felt like they sat back and watched the world pass them by. Well get over it, life is long and hard. I don't understand how such a young person could be so mentally clouded that they cannot see past their petty little situations...and jump off a building.

Everyone has their problems. Right now I have to find some $$$ to pay my electric bill. If your worse problem is you cant find a friend, get your ass off the computer and go find one....there are 6 billion people on this rock.

[HippyGoneWild]

with little wing and valkyrie,Life is a long and winding road(Beatles).Your in a pothole right now and you need to get out.Don't fuckin fret ,eventually the sun will shine again my friend.Been there ,done that.Tommorows another day...Make stuff happen, instead of whining.Get a fuckin backbone and be the man that You are.Finally ,repeat these words to yourself every morning"any day above gound is a good day":clap:* Hippy motivational speaker at your service*(live in a van down by the river).lol...1st post, peace:jointsmile:

[ValkyrieAg]

What you people with the choke hold on life seem to forget is that not everyone has a pair of vice grips. People get down to the point where they can no longer get themselves out on their own. If you think that all he needs is a kick in the ass, then you've obviously not been there and have no right to assume that's all he needs.

I can work with this this analogy.

When i was young, I didn't have vice grips, I had some tweezers. I gained some confidence in my younger days, realized that I am my own man. I can succeed without anyones help. I am more resourceful than I give myself credit for.
Then I graduated to pliers. I got down for a while during the beginning of college. I came back better than ever.....graduated to vice grips. I am now self sufficient, plenty of people around me, exciting times, unknown (but bright) future, alot of good pot. I realize that noone is my boss. Noone is trying to 'get me down'. The man sucks, but I won't let him 'get me down'. I was once one of those kids who listened to 'authority', which helped me by guidance.....but now I realize that we are all people. We all have the same issues and shortcomings. I also realized that no fairy comes out of the sky to help you out in tight situations.

Now I have me a fuckin Pipe Wrench. If anyone threatens my alpha ass, I'll beat em with it. If someone bags on me, I'll beat em with it. Consequence? Everyone who knows me knows I have a pipe wrench. I am not afraid of my shadow, and I make clear and confident decisions.

Get yourself a pipe wrench and walk around with your head high and confident. You gain respect when you wield a pipe wrench.

[ValkyrieAg]

Well the tool was an analogy. I think you are mistaken if this 'kid' is having a rough time. So his grades are bad...he can't buy a friend....he probably smells and noone likes that. Thats not a rough time. His life sucks because he wasn't able to gain the confidence he needed. He isn't even in the real world yet. My mother died when I was 20...rough, yeah kind of....but I pulled through it no problems. Do you really think his problems are worth holding his hand and telling him he is special? No. He is just some punk kid who is feeling sorry for himself. He doesn't need a fairy, he doesn't need a psych evaluation. He simply needs a kick in the ass.

Btw, give me 5 seconds with my pipe wrench and those hands are gonna be broken hands.