A few things to think about if these types of thoughts ever come back.

Men, are lone wolves. Women have big support groups of friends but men are generally alone. We have friends and everything, but at the drop of a hot a man can move to another country and make a whole nother group of friends through work or school or whatever.
It's nice to think different when you're young, but in the end this is how it works out. (i'm not generalizing people, there are exceptions to everything, I'm just repeating something a lot of wise male adults have told me that i've found to be pretty true)

Also, People are numbers games. Think about this. Get a peice of paper and go outside. Make two collumns, one for people you like and one for people you dont. Look at every person who walks by. Make a check in either collumn. Don't think about what kind of person they may be, judge them entirely upon their exterior. Hooked nose? Ugly clogs? Stupid brand name sweatshirt? Everyone thinks like this. Notice how many people you actually end up making a check for in the good judgement box.
1 in 5? 1 in 10?
This means that on a very beginning impression, only one in ten people do you like. Works the same for you my friend.

Just put out what you'd like to receive and eventually your life will make sense. If you want caring, devoted, active friends, then be caring, devoted, and active with them.

Also, NEVER, EVER, EVER kill yourself.
I want you to REALLY think about this one.
Have you ever been sad and then something makes you happy?
Your negative moods LIE to you. They whisper little deceptions that have no basis in logic at all. Always remember that your unhappiness is temporary, that the lows are just moments in time, that in the big picture of things, they give you strength and teach you how to be optimistic about life.
I don't think I would have learned how to be self-reliant or love life like I do if I never became suicidally depressed. It taught me an immense amount about myself, and life.

Suicide is STUPID my friend.
Think of how much fun you're going to have in a few years when you go to college and people have grown up and matured and are generally more accepting. Or if you're REALLY in the dumps, just think about how much chemically induced pleasure you're going to recieve from your drug expirementation. This train of thought isn't very healthy, but it's better than suicide.

Something else I want you to do as well.
Go to school tommorrow. And instead of focusing on all the people that have made you feel negative about yourself,
be patient, calm, and look around the classroom. Think about all the people who have been friendly to you. Even if you might perceive them as losers or unintelligent or "the fat chick". THOSE people are REAL. Unless you're a total inverted loner, these people are going to exist for you. They may only be acquaintances, but they're there, and they're friendly. Talk to them. Find something in common. Meet their friends, becuase friendly people generally make friends with other friendly people.
And finally, just be yourself, but be a little reserved at first.
Smile and laugh at their jokes and share a story.
Eventually you're world is going to brighten.

Never give up.

And never forget how boring it was to not be born.
Isn't life GREAT?! Breathing! Sleeping! Smoking pot!
Feeling healthy! Making yourself dinner, choosing from all different types of tastes and being hungry and then sitting down and loving yourSELF!
Inferius Reviewed by Inferius on . Okay, this is my appology okay, i know that ppl on here dont really like me...and i know it doesnt really matter. but today, i realized that i pretty much dont have any friends at my school, and i am apparently annoying. i have no clue why and niether does anybody else...so..they say "ur annoying" and i ask why and they dont tell me why...im kind of thinking about killing myself, and im not saying this for attention, so please dont think i am. i really dont know wut to do. i really want friends, and i dont have many and Rating: 5