well, ,,, dont kill yourself,, i have contemplated it sometime, its not worth it for u cannot see what the future holds for u and ur life,, or if there is a future for any of us, but think about it some more, its not worth it,, how about insted of killing yourself,, you should put on the song ladies night on a boombox and have this positioned on your shoulder, smoke some bud and boogie on down your street,,dont kill urself