Okay, this is my appology

[Samwhore]

i love you<3

everything will be alright, do not apolgize for how you feel, its how you feel and you cant control it, hang in there

[SkatePopwar]

dont stress, i didnt have a single friend in 6th grade. i thought about suicide then, and thinking back on it that would be a pretty shitty end to my young life..

i dont want to die before my first shroom trip either. assuming you havent done them, do you want to either?
what im getting at is theres a shitload more for you to experience. so stop being foolish

[peaceandlove420]

I know how you feel. Sometimes having those thoughts are unavoidable. However my friend, I feel that dwelling on those thoughts is the absolute worst thing you could possible ever do.

Try to occupy yourself with something. Start reading a book, start working out, go surfing.

[big smoke07]

You have no friends so your going to kill yourself? Thats being stupid. Dont expect pitty from me when there are people with no mother or father and havent committed suicide.

[ericwt]

Yes life can suck and so do people. That is just the way it is sometimes.

You have not pissed me off, so you are okay with me.

Look some people are going to like you, some wont.

So what you may have pissed off a few people here. You may have no friends anywhere. You have no where to go but up.

People on this site are actually pretty forgiving. I have pissed off a few. If you tell them you screwed up and say you are sorry most folks here will give you another chance. If they don't who cares? This is just the Internet.

You might need to look at yourself and try to improve yourself. Honestly looking at who you are can help you start to make changes.

Truth is most people are not worth knowing. But hell they say your real friends you can count on one hand.

I have certainly been where you are. Thought of offing myself several times.

But a few years ago my brother blew his brains out. That changed everything for me. Suicide is a selfish act. My brother did not see beyond his pain to realize that so many others would be effected.

Regardless of who you are someone loves you. My brother hunt my mom and dad, me, his kids and many others.

About a year ago I met my father and we went to the grave yard for another funeral. When he walked by my brothers grave he looked it it and said "What a waist". But within his eyes I could see the pain and hurt that was there.

You cannot hurt yourself without hurting others.

[psychocat]

A couple of good friends is better than hundreds of fakes.
We all piss off someone sometimes, it's part of life , those who are petty about it hold grudges for the stupidest reasons.
You only ever realy need you.
Bollocks to what others think of you , what you think of you is more important.
You can be whoever you want to be if you're prepared to go for it and even if you don't get there you can always stand proud and say I gave it my best shot.
I left school with no qualifications but I worked hard and became a very skilled engineer , I earn more than enough and I have travelled far and wide.
I like being me and thats all any of us can strive for, liking ourselves.

PS I have absolutely no reason to dislike you.

[Skink]

could be worse,,,you could be my age and have no friends...

the answer to this is very simple... do nice things for nice people... even if you don't make a friend you will receive a nice gesture back... your life starts with you and you are what you want to be,,, so change and it's all good...

Your potential friend,,,

Skink

[Greenport]

bloody, i have barely anyfriends and im annoying. Im alive and everything. i dont do that well in school and frankly Fuck people. i like TO be alone. only 1 friend i love with all my heart and he lives in a diff state as of right now until hes 18.

[peacetrain]

Fuck high school...it's horrible for everyone, even when you have a lot of friends (I did).

Hold on until you actually get out of high school to judge how much of an effect your grades will have on your entire life. And people who say they don't like you without any explanation why are probably full of shit...I would find THEM annoying.

[Inferius]

A few things to think about if these types of thoughts ever come back.

Men, are lone wolves. Women have big support groups of friends but men are generally alone. We have friends and everything, but at the drop of a hot a man can move to another country and make a whole nother group of friends through work or school or whatever.
It's nice to think different when you're young, but in the end this is how it works out. (i'm not generalizing people, there are exceptions to everything, I'm just repeating something a lot of wise male adults have told me that i've found to be pretty true)

Also, People are numbers games. Think about this. Get a peice of paper and go outside. Make two collumns, one for people you like and one for people you dont. Look at every person who walks by. Make a check in either collumn. Don't think about what kind of person they may be, judge them entirely upon their exterior. Hooked nose? Ugly clogs? Stupid brand name sweatshirt? Everyone thinks like this. Notice how many people you actually end up making a check for in the good judgement box.
1 in 5? 1 in 10?
This means that on a very beginning impression, only one in ten people do you like. Works the same for you my friend.

Just put out what you'd like to receive and eventually your life will make sense. If you want caring, devoted, active friends, then be caring, devoted, and active with them.

Also, NEVER, EVER, EVER kill yourself.
I want you to REALLY think about this one.
Have you ever been sad and then something makes you happy?
Your negative moods LIE to you. They whisper little deceptions that have no basis in logic at all. Always remember that your unhappiness is temporary, that the lows are just moments in time, that in the big picture of things, they give you strength and teach you how to be optimistic about life.
I don't think I would have learned how to be self-reliant or love life like I do if I never became suicidally depressed. It taught me an immense amount about myself, and life.

Suicide is STUPID my friend.
Think of how much fun you're going to have in a few years when you go to college and people have grown up and matured and are generally more accepting. Or if you're REALLY in the dumps, just think about how much chemically induced pleasure you're going to recieve from your drug expirementation. This train of thought isn't very healthy, but it's better than suicide.

Something else I want you to do as well.
Go to school tommorrow. And instead of focusing on all the people that have made you feel negative about yourself,
be patient, calm, and look around the classroom. Think about all the people who have been friendly to you. Even if you might perceive them as losers or unintelligent or "the fat chick". THOSE people are REAL. Unless you're a total inverted loner, these people are going to exist for you. They may only be acquaintances, but they're there, and they're friendly. Talk to them. Find something in common. Meet their friends, becuase friendly people generally make friends with other friendly people.
And finally, just be yourself, but be a little reserved at first.
Smile and laugh at their jokes and share a story.
Eventually you're world is going to brighten.

Never give up.

And never forget how boring it was to not be born.
Isn't life GREAT?! Breathing! Sleeping! Smoking pot!
Feeling healthy! Making yourself dinner, choosing from all different types of tastes and being hungry and then sitting down and loving yourSELF!