ok, to be able to live with my mom, i signed a paper, that said i wouldnt be out side after 6 PM... and that i would take random drug tests, and that anyone i hang out with alone, had to have a back ground check done first....ohh... and that if im with any girls, that they have to take a drug test, and i have to have some one over the age of 18 with me at all times.... and that i would stat out of trouble with any law inforcement officers...
or i get taken away from my mom and put in a foster home... so...

well... no one was 18... i was drunk... the car was "stolen"... i would not of passed a drug test... and 3/3 of the people in the car could pass for just misdominors on a back ground check, and 2-3 people in the car, would show up with more then one felony... and the remaining person, would have one felony on their record...

so i was basicaly fucked...

i got home, and i relised, that im going to have to go live in a foster home, and that i fucked over the living argenments for all of us, because my mom is still in a custady battle with my brother and sister... and if i fuck up, it fucks up my moms and brothers and sisters stuff to... and my mom is the only person that cares loves me... and my moms about the only person that i really love in this world.. and for me not to be able to even see my mom, let alone live with her, until im 18...would tear me up inside... and its to much for me to handle... so i basicaly, slamed my head threw a wall...countinuasly hit my head on another wall(directly were the stud is at) punched my self(with and with out brass knuckles) and then spent about 10 minutes looking for my carpenter knife to use the razor in it... and then i got the head spins, and passed out...