I'm surprised by the number of possitive, and understanding posts here. That and I'm glad my thoughts were expressed coherently enough to understand during my journey:stoned: . You all clearly have your own wisdom within you, sometimes it's just a matter of piecing it together. I wish you all the best of luck with that.

But of course, there's no such thing as enlightenment in a pill (or tab) either. I can honestly say my thought processes regarding my ability to accomplish my goals, have remained in this state and kept me on the right track. It's like riding a bike now, no matter what mind-state I end up at, I can't forget what I learned from the experience.
But, as I was saying, there's no instant-nirvana pill. As I learned yesterday, a sudden and prolonged bought of intense neurological pain can turn the best mind into a complete asshole. I learned my lesson from my journey, but nobody can learn them all in one sudden experience.

I can honestly say though, that it forced me to rip the negative influences from my subconscious and acknowledge them. At least now I have a better understanding of why my personality goes to hell sometimes, and I didn't realize before just how big a role physical pain has played in that.