no, its ok i can understand that. It's hard to understand me from those few paragraphs. The job was very hot and loud and hard but I went to work every day, never missed a day. I think that I am a very hard worker and I would appreciate some help from the school. I'm not mad at you or anything and I appreciate your comments but I think at first I'm going to send the letter to the financial aid office and then to the president of the school. If there's help out there I would appreciate it. I think the "easy way out" would be to drop out of school and just pay the debt I have now or to make another dumb decision. But its ok. I just dont want you to think that I'm some lazy ass, because I'm not. I can tell you value hard work, as do I, but anything that can make my life easier is something I will try.