when you are somewhat of a novice or intermediate smoker, there is a point in your high when your mood changes. it's more than just mood, our entire conciousness, our patterns of thought, they change. sometimes they become better and more relaxed,sometimes paranoid, sometimes really really strange in a great way and sometimes strange in a bad way.

i think you get to a certain point where you cross over and that is lost. i know for a fact that im at that point because i carry mood and consciousness right into my high now. instead i feel the same effects that used to come along with this mental transition like feeling really physically relaxed, seeing unfocused and enjoying things a lot more than normal.

i have taken long enough breaks to know that you never get that conciousness change again in all of your years of smoking. you need to start looking at pot in a different way now and start treating it accordingly. thsi is my advice becuase it sounds to me like you are going through exactly what i went through