in response to your first statement regarding intelligent design. what i am saying is that it isn't some new theory that popped up recently. "creationism" has been viewed as the explanation for the origin of life for a very long time. consider the famous scopes trial in the beginning of the nineteenth century. it was over a teacher who went against the rules of the time and taught evolution as opposed to what was required: creationism (which, in case you didn't know, is the same thing as intelligent design).
i want you to understand that i am not trying to discredit your beliefs as you are trying so hard to mine. i was simply asking questions. i also know that we will not convince each other one way or the other and have reached an impasse in the argument.
finally, is it really that hard to believe there is something bigger than yourself out there?