Can I make everyone sad for a moment?


One day, when i was 6, my dad took me to Corpus Christi to visit a meat packing plant. He is in the meat industry and was visiting some guys down there. I stood at the kill floor eating a sandwich and a dr. pepper. I could see the thick steers headed up the shoot. They would smell around for a little bit. Look up. And there is a man there with a prong-gun, it fires a .22 cal rod, its like a little hammer. He puts it on the head, and it quickly disables the animal, which is good because you can't have an animal sitting there flopping around...thats time and time is money. Well they string it up quickly with hydraulics and within 20 feet on the conveyer, there is no head, no skin, and its muscles are twitching. It was when I was eating that sandwich and drinking my Dr. Pepper, I realized that one day I would die. I would end up rotting and I probably would be none-the-wiser. We are only here for a short time and when that time is up, i think we lose our self awareness. But the 'good' thing is that after death, eternity could feel like one second. Pretty wicked for a 6 year old to comprehend. I am still afraid of death, and i try to seek spirituality, but when our own personal future is so bleak......oh what the hell, i gotta go load a bowl.