Quote Originally Posted by MastaChronic
damn dude, right on the money.
i swing from intense emotion to no emotion, although im more in the latter state than anything
Aye I entirely feel you on that. I find myself constantly wondering why I'm that way and what I could do to feel better in a long term way ya know.

The drugs...they certainly didn't/don't/won't help...but at the same time they really do, how ironic eh? You ever picked up on meditation? I'm not talking Buddha worshipping meditation, I'm talking breathing exercises and the clearing of the mind. Making these overwhelming thoughts (the nice and the evil ones) shut the FUCK up! The best way to go at it is to start off easy with proper technique, and it definitely helps man, I kid you not.

I never seem to have the willpower to meditate when I smoke lots of buds, but when I don't, I do that and I find myself wondering why I was ever depressed in the first place. But the circle always starts over...

Best of lucks man, let me know of any updates on your status.