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[Nelf]

If you've let everyone down, then you should make it a goal to make it up to them, IMO. I've been there, and it helps to think about how your death would affect the lives of those around you. It wouldn't make anyone happy, guaranteed. If my worst enemy committed suicide, it wouldn't make me happy. Life is a gift.

[birdgirl73]

It's not a stupid thing, hun. In some ways, it's probably easier on a Web site.

You are dangerously depressed right now and could use some help with that. What's stopping you from making some changes that improve your life? From talking to someone who can help you start to feel better? From connecting with new people to love? From not letting people down in the future if, as you say, you've done so in the past? My guess, based on one of your Christmas-related threads, is that you DO have people who care about you. You were saying you'd need to fake a happy reaction in response to gifts. That was a bit of a clue right there. Self-destruction is an attractive idea when you're depressed and feeling alone and hopeless, but when you're down in the black hole of feeling that way, you can't see that you haven't always--and won't always--feel that way. And you'd be taking a permanent situation to a temporary problem. One that's got remedies.

Step 1: stop drinking. Alcohol just makes depression worse. We'll move to step 2 when you're ready . . . .

[lil josh]

dude im nt really good at things like this but i dont want you to do something drastik and me not to have said anythink to stop you.

think of your happiest memorys...think of your most recent happy memories....think of your most happy recent memories with people.if you kill yourself there is no chance you or the people you were with are going o have times liek thast again. you can always make things happen if you put your mind to it.
what are you going to gain from killing yourself. if anythink just be a lil fucker and do whatever the fuck you want when you want.

trust me thats not such a bad thing, you said you keep letting ppl down right? so you WANT to make them happy....you know you can make sum1 happy if ou want to. basically turn yourself in2 a tool at times and just do shit.

duno if this has helped you but im sure birdgirl will help with her amazing touching words that she always delivers, or someone else older than me and better at dealing with these sort of issues.

also i think online is a good place to tlk bout shit like this cause at least then you havent told any1 irl and caused a issue about it because you might come to later regret these thoughts and be happy that no one that you know irl knew.

good luck m8

[pixel]

stop looking for attention, if you really were going to kill yourself you'd be hanging from a rafter right now, not talking about your life's problems on a cannabis forum. if you're gonna kill yourself, go ahead and do it. if not, shut the fuck up and move on with your life.


and excuse me for not being as sadly gullible as everyone that posted above

[savagepossum]

stop looking for attention, if you really were going to kill yourself you'd be hanging from a rafter right now, not talking about your life's problems on a cannabis forum. if you're gonna kill yourself, go ahead and do it. if not, shut the fuck up and move on with your life.


and excuse me for not being as sadly gullible as everyone that posted above

no don't apologise your the only one speaking sense, your right mods just close this thread and forget about me

[JeenYuss]

no don't apologise your the only one speaking sense, your right mods just close this thread and forget about me

yeah postin on a website like that usually means you already planned ta do it but u dont really want to so u want sum1 to talk you out of it, if you didnt want us to talk you out of it u wouldnt have posted it in the first place

[Its a Plant]

How old are you possum? You're either really young and immature, mentally unstable, or just plain 'ole wasted. Or it's all three, I dunno.

But for your sake and ours, I hope your kidding, or you just wanted to vent or something. But joking about something like this, or even pretending to harm yourself, shows incredibly bad taste on your part. That can get the website in trouble, too, ya know?

That being said, I also think you would have done the deed by now instead of mulling around about it here. That means there's still time to get REAL help instead of advice and sympathy from people that can't get you the help you do or don't need.

Other than that, this thread confuses me, and if I had to guess, the dude got drunk and over-embellished about how depressed he is, and the mentioning of suicide can be chalked up to the sauce. ~

[AR15]

kay jst wondering how much alchahol it takes to kill hey hey as in alcahol poisening causing death just let me know people

Like birdgirl said, height, body weight, condition of your liver, your tolerance to alcohol, what drinks you would be consuming alcohol by (wine/beer/hard alcohol/etc).

But, really, don't kill yourself, it's not worth it. Listen to what others have said here. If you feel like you let down the people who do/did care about you, and now you feel alone, well then you need to fix it. If you look at the big picture, it can be really overwhelming and depressing. You can't do it all at once, don't look at it like that, it will only intimidate you. You just need to take it a little at a time. The first is the hardest because you're at your worst and you have so much to work on. It gets progressively easier.

You seemed to be hinting at killing yourself by method of alcohol poisoning, well I don't know what alcohol is to you. I don't know if you have problems with/because of it, but the fact that you thought of killing yourself through it is a reason enough if you wanted to go to an AA meeting. They're really kind, and they would welcome you with open arms. Even if your problems turns out isn't associated with alcohol at all, they'd still treat you the same. If you need actual people (in the flesh, not over the internet), they're out there, and I'm sure some would be willing to go out of their way to lend you a shoulder and an ear. You can always leave as easily as you came.

Really, with whatever situation you're in right now, the best immediate remedy is to keep yourself busy. Do productive things. Make lists of things that need to be fixed around the house, chores that need to be done, etc. One thing that you can really do to help yourself out especially if you feel you're alone is get a pet, although that can really depend on your situation. I would highly recommend a dog as they're loyal to the death and they require maintenance. No matter what, dog's will always welcome attention and give it. They'll show every bit of appreication and unconditional love and they will give their lives for you if it ever came down to that. They do require a good deal of work which would keep you busy. Picking up one from the local shelter or pound is great as you should get the immediate satisfaction of really saving a soul and giving it more than it would have got. I know a couple people at very rock bottom who only hang on because of pets. Trust me, they're worth it.

And there's nothing wrong with talking to us here. I hope things start to look up for you, let us know. We'll be here for you.

as for pixel (and those alike), things like what you've said can really drive a person in the wrong direction. It's a serious thing if someone ever contemplates suicide, and worse, openly. Someone can teeter on the edge, and what you've said can make them lean in the wrong direction. I would ask that you please be careful in situations like these, because although the chance of something like this being exactly the worse case scenario is really really small, it is very weighted. But I still respect your view point as it seems you're taking it from a realist point of view.