Quote Originally Posted by birdgirl73
Hey again. I feel the same way, Slipknot, my adopted son/little brother. I wish you were closer than Houston because if you were, y'all'd be sitting here with all of us tomorrow. I mean that very seriously.

I know I don't know your mom, but you've told me enough about her that I know she wasn't someone who should have adopted or given birth to kids. I'm sure she did as good a job as she knew how, and I know she's in terrible pain after the death of your brother, but she's not now--and probably never has been--emotionally equipped to nurture healthy, balanced kids. If anyone else is reading this and wondering how I dare say these things, I do because I've been reading--and listening--to Slipknot for a while now. These are not revelations to him. He's known this stuff for a long time.

Why do you worry me? Well, mostly because I know you've been in a lot of pain and because, as you said earlier, you have put yourself and your wife through some rocky experiences as a result. Also, you told me not too long ago that you don't put much stock in therapy/counseling, and that worried me because I think folks who don't take time to offload some of their heaviest emotional traumas, particularly young men, are at much higher danger of perpetuating the traumatic cycle in their own lives, relationships, and future generations. Also, I worry a tad, as I do about others here on the boards, when I hear you speak of being so fond of alcohol. Didn't mean to get so heavy, but I worry about you because I'm one of the many here who think highly of you and care!
well let me tell you, it feels good to be cared about.... it probably wouldn't seem much to most people here, but it means alot to me, and i thank you for it.. even if you didn't mean it (which let me say i don't doubt for a second, just saying even if you DIDN'T mean it, it'd still mean alot to me....) and anyone that tries to persecute you for what you say about my mom, i'd tell them them, they're going off on the wrong track, and you're very right in what you say! lol.... don't let my laughter fool you, or anyone, the pain still lies underneath, only those who grew up without a mother or father, can really comprehend what wondering years and years (if not forever if they never found their parents or answers) could do to a person.... it makes you wonder why your parents didn't want you or what you did that was so wrong to be excluded from it all, its' very hard, and it makes you grow up a very diffrent person..... as i've said, only someone that's gone through ti could really understand the consequences already set in motion (or in 'dummier terms) what it can really do to a person, emotionally.

and birdgirl, i've been in therapy pretty much all my life.... i know it works for some people, but you also know it doesn't work for everyone, and we both know it's those un-expressed emotions that make the diffrence, i do express my emotions, just not to a counselor, so i'm healthy in that aspect, the only diffrence is i don't have someone to give me feedback on how i'm doing... but like i said i've been in it all my life, and i do know alot (not saying i'm a know-it-all lol, hardly from it, just letting you know, i'm ahead of it all, and keeping it healthy as possible...) i'll be allright.. in the end, someone will be able to look back on my life and say i lived a decent life, and did all i could to make it that way, and in the end, that's all that matters right? that you tried? fail or succeed, it's the trying that REALLY makes a person... or am i wrong? lol...
slipknotpsycho Reviewed by slipknotpsycho on . so what presents did you get? figured might as well go ahead and start this thread now, seeing as some families open up some of their presents on christmas eve, and the time diffrences and what not... so what'd you get? Rating: 5