Quote Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho
lol! you basicly said screw my mom and you don't even know "the bitch" (she deserves that name) you know birdgirl, sometimes you feel like the older sis, or the mom i never had.... the way you tell me to look after myself and what not... and how do i worry you anyways? just wondering.... i mean i'm not (anymore) one of those people who threaten suicide everyweek, and i'm not exactly running out involving myself in destructive behaviour....

. . . . but sometimes, it's just alot more beneficial for everyone if that love isn't covered up, and it's loud and right in your face.... sometimes, people are blind to it (like me) and really need to be shown so... i wouldn't doubt if even a few people here really think highly of me and would really hate (and even feel this place wouldn't be the same) without me... but like i said, sometimes you just need to be shown.....
Hey again. I feel the same way, Slipknot, my adopted son/little brother. I wish you were closer than Houston because if you were, y'all'd be sitting here with all of us tomorrow. I mean that very seriously.

I know I don't know your mom, but you've told me enough about her that I know she wasn't someone who should have adopted or given birth to kids. I'm sure she did as good a job as she knew how, and I know she's in terrible pain after the death of your brother, but she's not now--and probably never has been--emotionally equipped to nurture healthy, balanced kids. If anyone else is reading this and wondering how I dare say these things, I do because I've been reading--and listening--to Slipknot for a while now. These are not revelations to him. He's known this stuff for a long time.

Why do you worry me? Well, mostly because I know you've been in a lot of pain and because, as you said earlier, you have put yourself and your wife through some rocky experiences as a result. Also, you told me not too long ago that you don't put much stock in therapy/counseling, and that worried me because I think folks who don't take time to offload some of their heaviest emotional traumas, particularly young men, are at much higher danger of perpetuating the traumatic cycle in their own lives, relationships, and future generations. Also, I worry a tad, as I do about others here on the boards, when I hear you speak of being so fond of alcohol. Didn't mean to get so heavy, but I worry about you because I'm one of the many here who think highly of you and care!