Sounds like you're just finally accepting the effects of marijuana or something lol. Anyways I'm going to type the reply I had in mind when I read the title of this thread. I think of my self of half and half now with recreational and medical use. I use marijuana for pain now as I have noticed literally all my pains seem to go away when I'm high. Of course they come back when I sober up but when I just don't feel like feeling the pain or what ever that's going on with me any more I just smoke some marijuana. Also marijuana has helped me with my appetite. I usually can't even finish a full meal.