you're lonely and depressed. it happens to many many people.
i've felt the same, you know what really helped? i got into Buddhism and meditation. i suggest you go buy some books off amazon

i recommend the following:

The Tibetan Book of the Living and Dead
The Tao of Pooh
really anything by the author Alan Watts
and same with Jack Kerouac. he's a fictional writer his book Dharma Bums is great, it's about being a modern buddhist

mainly you gotta get your mind off things man. don't dwell on bad emotions.
weed can make it even worse since it intensifies feelings, if you're depressed itll make things worse. i highly suggest you start meditation. just sit, close your eyes, stop thinking and focus on your breath. breathe naturally in an out into your belly and focus on nothing but the natural breath.
0range Reviewed by 0range on . im miserable and i dont know why today i was trying to tune my drums and all of the sudden, i snapped, i cant think straight, i actually thought about cutting myself and stopped myself after i found a sharp object, everything feels unreal, i feel like suicide is the only way but i would never kill myself.. i dont want to feel miserable anymore what do i do.. im not on any drugs right now.. it went from anger, to miserable... i feel anxious, i dont want to smoke weed to make it go away because this is more serious than ive ever Rating: 5