i'm pretty dependant on weed

[OniEhtRedrum781]

I don't depend on weed to get me through my daily life, but it would certainly suck without it..

[lagstronaut]

you need to make a list of the things that are bothering you in your life. what do you want to be? why aren't you there? if your depressed, it's usually because there is something that is supposed to be in your life taht isn't. sit down and try to understand wahts eating at you, then set about to change it. unless you want to spend the rest of your life stoned and sad. I was this way a feew years ago and found my ttrue calling in life. music. I now know that i want to be a recording engineer and play music with my friends. (money or not, i'll be happy). find what makes you happy and embrace it entirely whether its a person, a hobby, etc... you can get through it man but its gonna take some effort on your part. the biggest thing to remember is that healing takes time and you can't expect results from no effort. baby steps my friend. you will get there.

lmao yeah I found my true calling too...guess what it is? yup, recording engineer also. wait till you find out about the fucked up industry that is my friend....schooling doesn't matter in this job, all you gotta do is scrub toilets and get coffee for the real engineers for a couple years and then you'll either:

a) get lucky they will hire you as an assistant engineer

b) be grouped with the majority of people who get let go as free interns when it's just about time to actually use some equipment, so the studio can bring in another kid to do the dirty work for free


sorry to put a damper on it but unless you can suck it up and do bullshit errands for a lengthy amount of time (with no pay, might I add) with not even the slightest amount of assurance that you will be employed by these people anytime in the future (the crap path I will most likely take), or start your own studio somewhere ($75,000 plus good location, plus teaching yourself the equipment, plus being a good entrepreneur, plus finding clientelle that stays with you long enough that you can actually start charging them because most DIY studios usually record for free for a while). If you can succeed through any of these 2 pathways then congratulations you get to do what you want with your life! If not, don't worry, you're like the thousands of other people who go by the wayside in tremendous debt.

Good luck, we're both gonna need it

EDIT: where are you planning on doing this? kudos if you're making the trip down to the two-faced Los Angeles to get the best experience and advice possible...but if you're in Buttfuck, Nowhere odds are you'll have to move out into a decent-sized city to get the deed done

[napolitana869]

lately i have been smoking all day long to try and get away from pretty moderate depression that i've only recently discovered i've had for going on a few years now. i completely rely on dope to get me through my thoughts of negativity/uncertainty/trying-to-be-someone-else that occur all the time...it's getting pretty pricey now too...

so is anybody else like me? anybody else depend on mary jane to make their obviously shitty life have less shittyness going on?

I've been feeling the same way the past few months and I really didnt think that I could take a break without going crazy (I mean real crazy, I have a personality disorder). Then I had to go to CO with my family because my grandma passed away and I thought it was going to be like hell because there would be so much stress, but it really wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. Which has lead me to think that maybe smoking everyday for the past year hasnt been all that healthy for me emotionally and that one day breaks like once or twice a month may help me to come out of the depression or at least help me deal with it in a better way.

[Frivolous248]

Is it just me, or does everyone seem depressed lately?

I don't depend on weed. Smoke it every night 'cause I like to get stoned and its a nice before-bed treat. Recently I was high during the day a lot more, and I must say I did not like it that much. I like being high in the day, but I felt like I was getting stoned too much. I wake up in the afternoon, so pretty much I got high, did nothing, then got high again later that night. I felt too focused on being high, and now I'm just doin' it at night again.

I'mma take a break after this week too. Hopefully get a job and get some good money for weed. Needa get clean too, stupid pre-employment drug tests.

So I don't depend on weed, I'm just, really bored when I can't have a nightly toke. But I'm bored anyway so its not that big a deal.

[TokinAsianGuy]

well i've smoked soo much weed, i've forgotten why i was depressed in the first place so now i'm happy.

[Inferius]

well i've smoked soo much weed, i've forgotten why i was depressed in the first place so now i'm happy.

LoL! I love that statement.

Smoke Weed is my creed,
without tobacco or seed,
Forget yesterday, or tommorrow,
Live NOW, with no sorrow.

[suhl]

well i think it is better to be dependent on weed for depression than on prozac, just an opinion, both are escapes from reality if you want them to be. and if you take depression medicine to be happy it is too, you take weed to be happy the same

[marvelous22]

i have smoked all day every day for 25yrs not trying to escape as i know there is no escape just love being stoned .about 5 yrs ago i stopped smokin for 6 mths just to prove a point that im not dependent on it.

Mad respect for that.

[Purple Banana]

I go through periods of time when I'll smoke once a day for a week or so, then smoke once per week, and it's harder to get through those days when i smoke everyday and then decide to go off for a bit. It enhances my life so much, but I can hold off on it with little or no difficulty.

My rule of thumb is, if I tell myself I have to go a week without weed, and I can do it, then I am not addicted. I simply desire weed.

[RIP ODB]

lately i have been smoking all day long to try and get away from pretty moderate depression that i've only recently discovered i've had for going on a few years now. i completely rely on dope to get me through my thoughts of negativity/uncertainty/trying-to-be-someone-else that occur all the time...it's getting pretty pricey now too...

so is anybody else like me? anybody else depend on mary jane to make their obviously shitty life have less shittyness going on?

Man, from my own personal experience, all I can say to you is now is definately NOT the time to start to dabble in other substances! When I felt like the way you described in your post, I was more suceptible to the thoughts of "Man I NEED to get high right now!", and I found myself caught up in a real bad battle with coke.

I wish I could help more but I have found that the only realistic way I can offer you some insight is to explain what I've been through. I know weed really isn't considered a "drug" among this forum, but would you consider yourself a full blown addict?

I dunno man, I'm sorry to hear about this kinda stuff but you seem like a fairly intelligent individual. I'm sure you'll get through it. Whether or not you need to quit smoking alltogether (for at least a little while), I don't know. But I would chill out on it. I know you've probably heard this plenty of times before but weed shouldn't be the answer to your problems.

At this point I'm rambling with no real point being made, so I leave you with this; take it easy.