emkid420 I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I found out this past March how hard it is to lose a pet when I had to have my cat, Tahina Hobbeson put to sleep. I had her since 1989 when I was 20 years old and she was my best friend. It still hurts to this day to think that she is no longer with me.
The day my friend went away, one of my human friends e-mailed me the following link:

http://www.indigo.org/rainbowbridge_ver2.html

and when I clicked it, and saw it, I cried my eyes out like a baby for hours, but when I was done I felt better. I hope you check it out.

You are the second person this month I have heard from on this board who lost a kitty. I sent them the same link and was told it was appreciated. I hope you too appreciate this little bit of hope I can offer.

Best of luck - coping with this can be difficult.

smoke a big fatty tonight in honor of your kitty's life!!