It could be going great, but I'm having set backs. It doesn't matter, over the next week I should be past those set backs and obstacles save a few big ones that are just gonna take patience and a positive mood. Even just looking ahead makes me happy, I'm getting anxious.

I don't smoke anymore (once in a while, more often when I'm drunk, I'll randomly smoke), and I think it's doing good for me. I've been having a lot of, I don't know how to say, self development? I've been looking at everything optimistically, taking it one day at a time, giving to and helping those around me who need it, and realizing what really makes me happy in life. I've really been strengthening friendship bonds with some of my friends, and that has really really made me feel better than I ever have in any way. Without even having a friendship jeopordized I've really come to appreciate the bonds I have and to find out how much some people mean to me. And it all comes from being real, just being who you really are. True friends will see it and hold you higher for that.

I could be much worse off, so I'm always thankful. Just focusing on the things in life that make me happy, however little or big, keeps my mood up. It's working wonders.

To smoke it, or anyone else in shitty situations, keep your head up. It's shitty now, but it's a testing time. You'll come out of it changed, for the better, and you will look at life different somehow someway. Sometimes, situations like these are needed for you to really think over your look on life. You might need a significant change in life, this can do it. I hope it gets better for you sooner rather than later.