i tried, i cried, and died (a little) :sadcrying:

[kindprincess]

sorry to hear you're having such a shitty day. i have days like that all the time too... i find it best to just take a few sleeping pills and go to sleep when things start getting that bad. if you manage to get it the extra sleep really helps you feel better when you wake up, and it's a new day, a new day to deal with all the problems you were handed the day before. but atleast this new day you woke up ready to deal wtih them rather than just be handed them unexpectingly.

first, i appologize if i've offended anyone by any of my statements, i think i had a cybernetic nervous breakdown, in addition to everything else...

as it is, i cried myself to sleep, and got a few hours. things don't seem so bad now, though i cant kick this down in the dumps thing...

it looks like the clone moms are going to pull through, i took them out to get fresh air...

the flower box is done for, the lights have been off for 20 hours. so everythings getting chopped early...oh well...

yes, i'll still be growing, though everything may be put on hold for a while. i now have no flower lights.

eric, i realy don't want to answer your question... though i may have been fececious in the delivery, i've been arguing religeon for about a month, so if i've been smote, there's why...

lbmom, thank you, and the 3 thing... to me it always seems like three sets of threes...3x3

dopeboy, that's the deepest message i've ever seen come from you... i'm realy touched...

sorry for being so snotty, i'm not good with emotions, and the anxiety doesnt' help. thank you all for your support. it truely means alot to me.

love, kp

[dopeboy703]

thanks, hope you feel better.

[40oz]

Did you get to keep any of the puppies?

[smoke it]

sorry. at least you got some puppies :jointsmile:

[kindprincess]

the pups were a day old when she died; they'll be a week old tomorrow. four of them, we've been bottle feeding.

we burried rusty today...i think he's happy where we laid him, it was were he and i would go when i was having a hard time with something; i thought this would be a most appropriate memorial.

thank you all for your support, i'm a little better now, more clear minded... i just have to be sad for a little while, and get up and keep going. am glad i had some where to go to talk; my brother tried, but i can't realy break down in front of him, i'm supposed to be strong for him (he lives with me due to emphysema, he hates that i take care of him)

thanx again for being there, through my emotional outburst. i'm sorry about some of the stuff in the previous posts, i hope no one is offended...

i love you guys...

kp

[kindprincess]

ps, smoke it, i saw a one liner in your sig that made me smile thank you

[lowryderulez]

I doubt you've offended anyone princess, well not me I know the feeling and sorry to hear you got it. I also had a grow what messed up a while back. When you put loads of love care and attention into a grow and lose it, its kinda like losing apart of yuh. Might sound stupid but people noticed i was feeling down because i acted without enthusiasm (which aint like me at all lol) ,,so i fixed what had broken and appreciated my lil mary even more. Losing a pet however is way worse,i dont have any but when i was little i cryed the day my rabbit died,, so imagine what i'd be like with a dog ffs! lol

laters

[BlueCat]

Kindprincess,

Man that is a really really bad day you had. Thank goodness your house didn't burn. Its so sad losing a pet but to lose 2 I know you must feel terrible. I know this won't sound like much now but the puppies will be your salvation.

When I was really ill I managed to raise a litter of kittens. It was so hard to do with the bottle feeding every 2 hours and all the other stuff. I was up night after night but it gave me a reason to make myself move.

I still have one of the kittens and she is my best friend. She still thinks I am her Mom and she is the smartest cat I have ever had.

Those puppies are really young and it will be very hard to raise them but if you put all your energy into it you could be raising your next best friend.

Good luck I hope you will post your progress.

Sending good vibes your way....

This is an Australian website but it has great info. I used it for my kittys

http://www.lowchensaustralia.com/bre...tlefeeding.htm

[ericwt]

I am glad you are doing better. You have been in my thoughts,

[GosTo]

dude i feel so bad, damn

i would just hang with friends and who ever says something u dont like or dont wanna do just say fuck you and be happy your dont work for pennies a day and live in a hut