another year ended, another year born,
discreetly i watch her on new years dawn.
a loss of breath, a heavy sigh,
she smiles brightly as i cry.

through welling tears, i look away,
just killing time till the very next day,
then i wake up down, and light a smoke,
inhaling deeply, try not to choke.

i walk through life with infinite sadness,
covered by a fake imitation of gladness,
beneath this mask there is a man,
who can't believe who can't understand.

why love somehow devours him all,
stays on his mind, made his life stall.
i can't stop spiraling off this track,
i just want to love and be loved back.