Quote Originally Posted by Skrappie
The more time you spend alone, the more time you spend thinking about yourself, you focus on your flaws, you feel weak, just like you said, and i bet your self-esteem is starting to take a dive too.

Now you may think i'm wrong when i say you focus on your flaws, but you do. You may not be doing it with your first level of conscious, but you do in fact do it. Your brain loves to process information, and will do it anyway it can. Being by yourself tends to dull mental stimulation because you do not have to react to people. Being by yourself will fuck you up.

I suggest you either get a hobbie, or you and the hubby start a new project around the house, like paint or room or something else that could keep both of you engaged in something for a day or so if you take your time. Keep your mind engaged in new things at all times. Read, learn to skateboard (thats how i got out of my funk this summer), do something! With enough time, each new thing you take on will bring you some sense of satisfaction. once again it may not be on your first level of conscious, but it will be there. Try feeling weak when you are the one passing everyone up with all your new expereinces.

Tell your mom she hurt you, but in a non acusing way. Let her know how much pain she has caused you over the years. Tell her you are not trying to hurt her feelings, just trying to let some of yours out/
bravo.