Quote Originally Posted by Dro_Princess
...I hated watching them fight cause it would get ugly and I was always in the middle of it. I have always wanted to tell my parents especially my mom how angry I am at them for the things that have happened but I cant bring myself to do it. I dont want to piss no one off, or hurt no ones feelings, but it seems like no one cares if they hurt mine.
Sorry for the rambling but I just really wanted to get a few things out.
Sorry about your troubles. What I want to say on that part is that your childhood is in the past. It sucks how certain things can go, no one should have to go through some things, but that's life and it's not a fairy tale. The only thing I can really say is that you know what they did wrong (you mentioned you have a husband) if and when you do have kids, you know not to do those things you're parents did, and that's life. If it's any revenge, it's a way for you to make sure your kids don't go through what you did. That's when doing the right thing really makes you feel good. Children are full of life, raise them right with love, they are the fruits of your labor, and knowing that you made it so that at least someone didn't have to suffer like you did should be healing enough. I hope that helps.

And for the current situation, try calling your close friends, ask one of them if they have some free time and want to go on a walk, preferably (at least in my case) somewhere peaceful, away from general traffic, and kind of secluded in any way (parks or creeks or whatever). Just walk for an hour or more/less as you feel. Do it with someone close to you. It's a great way to just vent if you need to, and having someone close to you makes it personal, a good way to get support and feedback. That person will probably feel even closer to you after that since you chose them. It'll probably lift your spirits at least somewhat.

If your friends can't make it, what about your husband? I didn't mention him to go first because even though he's most likely very close to you, it seems like you're itching for someone that you don't see everyday. Otherwise, your husband seems like a good candidate.

Hope you feel better.