Quote Originally Posted by AR15
I don't know, it made me numb, I was down but not really down or depressed like that you know? It didn't really hit me right away. The more I thought about it the more it kind of went through me like, he's not here anymore. I still have his number in my phone. He was so full of life, and then it's like he just dissapeared. It's hard to think about. I still remember the last time I talked to him, and thinking about it's like wow you just talk like it's nothing and you're gonna see each other in a few days or whatever, and then he's not there. Everytime I pass his house, everytime someone mentions something about it, anything associated with him that triggers my mind, it just goes through my head. I don't know if I could ever let go.
Thats the same way I feel. I spoke to him on aim before he went to sleep, he never woke up. He goes to boarding school now and we were talkin about how hes coming to visit in a little bit for the vacation. When I first heard it I didn't really feel anything because I was so sure it wasn't true, I spoke to him the night before it happened and there was no way he was dead.

Also, I am pretty infuriated about the rumors that people are spreading and I really don't know what I will do if I hear somebody say coke overdose one more time. Why would a kid who never did drugs and had no interest in doing drugs decide to do a shitload of coke on a school night. Plus, I know he was playing with garage band and not going out or anything.